Friday, November 26, 2004

leaving things behind

it's true that best things in life are free. a walk in the beach, gazing at the stars and the moon, the sunset in the baywalk, the refreshing air in the mountains and a lot more you could just get for free. i could bask in the stillness of the river and be swallowed by the calmness of the sea. waves that slaps the sand could send me to wilderness and think about nothing else. a long leaisure walk could restore the wearied and consumed brain of mine. such things...

there are instances (ive noticed lately though that it has been less frequent) that i do get a chance to savor all these and more but for hours only. two weeks ago, i was in tagaytay and i got to visit the palace in the sky. the famed structure constructed by imelda marcos during her heydays in the malacanang. it was a breathtaking sight believe me. from up there you could see everything. the taal lake, cavite skyline, and polluted metro manila. when we got there, we could hardly see the way up because of the fog. the moment we went out of the car, shivers gripped my entire body. it was so cold. feels like im in baguio again. because of the fog, we could hardly see anything. but then by all means, God must have known im there. so he sent a strong wind and washed away all the fog. and voila, in just a moment i am in heaven and could see everything clearly. and i mean very clear view of the 360 degree location where i am standing. wow...


and again, that was for free (well of course the proponent spent some money to bring me up there)....


i could not think of anything that may have in any way relation to the title i wrote above. maybe, i was just depressed a few minutes ago (hehehe).


i havent had a chance lately to squeeze in some movie treat. i dunno. i was pre occupied with too much drinking and school. weekends have been sacred to me too. i don't go out at all. when i do, i go to the gym to do some work out.

til here...







Thursday, November 25, 2004

gladly...

IT'S NOT ALWAYS RAINBOW AND BUTTERFLIES...


i woke up rather late this morning and was stranded by the nationwide strike by some disgruntled transport groups. it took me an hour to get to my office from the usual 15 minute ride. times are hard. a lot of us are struggling to make a living and yet nothing comes out good from the efforts and sweat we are investing. they say that these are the signs of times and it is high time to juggle another work aside from the work you are into.

there maybe a thousand and one reasons why people tend to long for something more. humans as we are, it is just natural especially when we lack the resources, the power and the means to get what we need in life. some would resort to the extremes like doing favors for others for a fee. it's quite ironic then that even though we are in a country where resources are abundant, we still are poor. a little rich country but with poor people. imagine the ironies. if we have to point fingers, we could have done it a long time ago. but then it seems to be a cycle. the system in the government, the values (if you may call it) or should i say the attitudes and behaviors are being passed on from generation to generation. which explains why we could not make even a short leap from what we have been before.


ME!

ME!

Monday, November 22, 2004

drained but not consumed...

WORK DRAINED ME TODAY...

but that doesnt mean im giving up. as they said life has two purpose, either to live or to exist. i chose the former...life is just too short id better get advantaged of what it has to offer and not just exist and breath and then regret what must be done...

going back to the topic i was planning to write on, work drained all the best in me today. i have to finish a lot of things because the deadline has been the bottleneck lately in the office. added to that is the work that keeps on coming as if work load never runs out.

after work, i still have to go to school which i think consumes all the energy that has been left after work. it's not that im not thinking of giving up but i think im bringing too much hassle to myself. when i get home at night, i could not bring myself to even just clean my pimpled face anymore.

im thinking of giving up my masteral class because it's too taxing for me to haggle work, school and more school (im referring to my masteral class). imagine, my last month's subject was almost a disaster. i was not able to attend regularly and was not even able to do my report. i just submitted my written report so that i could have my grades....


to top it all, money spells the difference. i dunno how to budget my meager salary and the bills i have to pay. i hate to talk about this kaya im ending this blog tonight...

til next time..



Sunday, November 21, 2004

bday post ops...

THE DAY AFTER...

spirits drain the best in you. you're like a lame duck the morning after a drinking spree. you see, yesterday, chloe (she's my niece) celebrated her first birthday. i havent had eaten too much but then i had a fill of beers.

i'm having a hard time budgeting my time lately. i wasnt able to come to my nursing class for almost a week now. last friday, i was planning to come in but then albie celebrated his birthday too. we went some bar hopping from romelie's to himba to cowboy grill and finally calle 5. RD was with us during our last stop at calle 5 just to have a swig of draft beer and paid the bill. bwahahah...i pity him though. but much to my surprise because i didnt spend a single penny last friday except for a taci back home. drank and spent up, i arrived at 3 in the morning and was still able to perform my cleaning regimen (imagine)...hehehhe

i promise that next week il do good with my studies at the same time my work...




Sunday, November 14, 2004

im back...

GREAT PICS ...

i wasnt able to finish what i was writing nevertheless im back. but not to finish what i have started but to expirement on postng my pics. that's why i had a series of pictures posted that has no bearing at all. i promise to remove them the moment i am able to find new pictures that would suit to what is being written here...



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just woke up...

GETTING UP...MOVING ON...

making a mark in this topsy turvy world even without people knowing it is so difficult. mark in the sense that you know for yourself you did something worthy, something noble and something worth remembering even if ages would come. i haven't encountered a person yet who have the ultimate dream of just making a mark in his whole life and forget about having to satisfy his own life's dreams.

i came accross a selection entitled "The INvitation" written by Oriah MOuntain Dreamer. This peace of not so lengthy literature shaked my not so normal world. When you look at the piece of work, the selection is so simple and very ...

wait i gotta go.

never on sunday...

FINDING THE RIGHT MENU...

seldom we could find people who are idealistic and would stick to their ideals no matter what happens. some would do lip service most of the time while others would just let things happen as they are and would not do a thing to change it. finding friends just like those people would seem hard. in fact it really is. maybe, there could only be one in a thousand people. an element of friendship is trust. once a trust is lost, i could never say that it could go back again. it happened to me once and i thought things would be the same again. but it never did. i dunno. perhaps for other people it could happen but in my case i simply drifted away. not that i am blaming myself for not making any effort to bring back the things we usually do but i guess the other person drifted away from me too. a mutual unspoken understanding i guess.

weekendly aside ( i should not be so sentimental and philosophical), it should be a light and easy day for me. i feel good and in the same way that the weather is just perfect to while away and read some good book. yesterday, i went to pure gold and found not just a golden book but some sort of realization that humans as we are people commit mistakes. so much of that...

this morning, i went to the stinky gym and did some bench press and dip ones.


til here...


Friday, November 12, 2004

Being Late But Never Outdated

FOR A NEWBIE...

for a newbie like me i deserve to have blasting display of fireworks and some horns blowing (sounds like christmas) in here...

the truth to the matter is, i saw the blogspot of calamansi and was inspired to have my own (well, here it is)....i just thought it to be cool to publish everything in here , right. my diary and journal days have been forgotten say 10 years ago but with this...man...i feel like im going back again and it feels good to write again. well, the difference is that i wont use pens and papers anymore....

value added is that i guess i get to publish my thoughts here including pictures and everything i want to post...for all the people to see...cool.........

although i have't started yet how to use this. i swear to good heaven's il learn in a weeks time.