Monday, December 20, 2004

dry and dreary...

i'm sick. the weekend rather ushered a not so good start for me. i went home at the wee hours of saturday morning due to some drinking spree along the joints of the red light district of malate last friday night. i was in high spirit though. i cant figger out really what transpired the entire night except i was out of my mind. whatever happened, i sincerely regretted all the things i did the following day :) which includes screwing that chubby hooker..:):):)

i went to the gym the moment i woke up last saturday. thinking that sweating it out could kill the drowsiness and nausea im feeling from the colt ice i took the other night, i was wrong. during the entire two hour work out, i was feeling entirely consumed and my throat and mouth seemed to dry up. i was thinking then that maybe this could be a prelude to some sickness again that i have been ignoring for two weeks now. i was right. after eating lunch, i could not contain myself anymore in one single place. i was kinda uneasy, everything that's around me seemed to be topsy turvy and i was really feeling cold. i slept in the room without the electric fan but still the cold feeling bit me to the bones. i took some medications but it didnt do its wonders. the following day, i was tipsy and nauseated and burning hot from fever. though i got the chance to check my mails and of course visit my blog, i could not do anything. my mind seemed to stop. it's not just simply working. the whole afternoon of sunday, i was nursing a burning fever by myself because the rest of my housemate went to a birthday party. thinking that i might convulsed (see, i have some apprehensions also :)...i just employed my meager knowledge in water therapy. i secured some cold water to clean myself up from time to time because my fever wont just subside...really. i was mad at myself for bringing myself into this mess. added to that was that i wasnt able to buy enough medicine to last me until they came home at night. and so from the morning til 5 in the afternoon i just had to be satisfied without any medicine but the water therapy i was giving myself. by the time i could not bear the fever anymore, i went down and bought some medicine. after which, i felt better. good god.....whew....

today, i thought of not coming over to the office but then again i have to be here because its our christmas party. a simple get together they say and not a party actually. however they call it, it's just the same. the thought is, there is a celebration. i still am not feeling well. i took alaxan FR and medicol to relieve myself but it's not just working. im dizzy and my back hurts. im thinking that there must be something wrong with my whole system this time. the bottom line of it all, im still having my water therapy though at this very moment. last night was also an ordeal for me because aside from the fever, i have to suffer cold and asthma attacks. good thing my inhaler always comes in handy. but the point is i still am suffering from lots of complications due to that friday night drinking spree....

too much of that....


today, i promise not to drink even if there's a party. il just eat. binge. and have some fun on the sides...

merry christmas to all..


p.s.


i wish i feel good today so that i could get drunk....:)




Friday, December 10, 2004

christmas is around the corner..

the news today reads: survivors found in the rubble of fallen edifice in quezon. strange huh? after like how many days, i think 6 days after the killer typhoon visited the philippine shore, it is just a blatant shock to know that they have survived down under the fallen building without anything to eat. a case of having nine lives? not really. a miracle i guess. there was even a child (looking weak and burnt out) that has survived the tragedy. rescuers were jubilant that their efforts were fruitful and that they haven't given up to look for someone alive in the ruins. a case of unseen hand must have been on the works.

now, here comes the planned party in the office. last time i heard that it would not push through because it would be uncalled for us especially that we are in the environment sector to have an extravagant party while our brothers in the typhoon torn areas are still grieving the loss of life and their property. they've got a point there but they could just at least consider that we should have at least a small gathering to celebrate the closing of the year. not an extravagant and vulgar party but just a simple one for us to celebrate the birthday of Christ and of course, the bottom line, to enjoy before finally waving goodbye to 2004. i just hope for a good turn out of what they're planning so that if ever it would push through at least for this year something better will happen in my life (im not saying bad things happened to me lately)...

lately, ive been experiencing feverish feeling and cold especially when the sun starts to set it. i dunno but i just feel uneasy and somewhat tipsy when the dark comes. perhaps due to lack of sleep. but then again, i seldom go to gimmicks and some late night tv show watching anymore. something must be wrong with my body system i guess. although i religiously take my vitamins, it could have been worse if ever i dont take them right.

im still on the crossroads whether i could go home this christmas. if i could have only my christmas bonus and i am not paying for that damn cell phone, i could have money to spend to go home. anyway, whatever it is, i'l just make the most out of it. il stay here and pass the yule tide season uneventfully. but i promise that if i could not go home this christmas, at least i could go home on fiesta. that way, it would be a bargain....


til here for the meantime....


Sunday, December 05, 2004

cold december rain...

the seething morning air sends shiver down my spine lately. though at night, it's the complete opposite. you could not just bear the heat. it's so warm that you could hardly contain yourself in one position when you are about to sleep. just last night, it took me a couple of hours before i could get sleep. i think it was already morning when i drifted to wonderland.

it's raining outside. i would sometimes associate rainy days to my moods. somehow, when it rains, i feel like it's gloomy also. i dunno. gloomy in the sense that i feel lonely and and i feel sad.

wait i gotta go...