Thursday, February 16, 2006

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

way too busy...

a lot of things interfere with my life lately. it's as if everything is blocking my way. for one, yesterday or i mean the other day i was not able to finish my blog. think of loose priorities and unmanaged time. not only that, major pain blocks my way to a clear and rosesful path to happiness (i learned lately though that he's not a major but a colonel, much higher than what i expected and that he's working with the intellegence group of the AFP). now think about what he can possibly do. am i seeing a dead end for us? just this morning bel texted to inform me that one of her officemates saw us at st. claire lighting a candle. maybe that officemate saw much more the only thing im worried about is that he/she could spill the beans to major pain.

i was in quandary and confusion last week due to those death threats coming from major pain. although i did not faltered with what i feel for bel, i admit that at one point i was terribly scared to death. who else wouldnt be? it was the first time i got those and swear to God i felt warm and hot all over when i read those text messages. during the first day, i was not that much bothered at all sensing that he could not possibly locate me. it was only the day after that everything sink in. i mean, God, i could be dead any moment when i go to school or when i am with bel. but since my love for bel is much stronger than the threat, i continued to see her and not bothering whether someone might be following us. all the more, i feel that i love her more. i dunno but that's how i feel and i think no ships and rods or bullets could deprive me of seeing her. risky as it is we continue to meet and have dinner always.

last sunday, i went to church alone because she could not make it. she just had to follow when the service was over so that we could have lunch together. after that i brought her home. the block before going to our rented house is a new salon though. so we dropped for a while to have our foot scrubbed (yeah, it felt good). after which, i introduced her to my older brother and my sister in law. right after the conventional introduction, we went ahead so that she could fix her things for the next day's duty. and since we should not be seen together we just parted ways to meet somewhere also. talk of hiding and hiding...

last night, feb. 13. she invited me for a dinner date. in the afternoon though, i texted her that i would not be able to attend our 6-9 pm class because i have to fix some errands for my another brother outside the country (i was to buy flowers and cards and chocolates for her girlfriend). but she would not give in. and so i told her that il just come in late and we'll just have a late night dinner. after class, we went to ortigas to look for a restaurant where there's not much customers. and so we found racks (the best ribs in town so their logo says). it's a place on the heart of ortigas near congo grill and mcdo. although im not really familiar with the place, i enjoyed the late night quiet dinner because there were only two more customers inside aside from us. we were wondering then where in the world are the people in the times of pre valentine's. it was a dinner full of witty and stuffy conversation. the food was superb ( i like the grilled pork chop. the best so far ive tasted here in manila). it was almost past 11 when we reached her niece's condominium. i did not got in though we just kissed on the elevator to say our good nights and valentine's greetings. i gave her the heart shaped ferrero chocolate which i bought at robinsons manila that afternoon. indeed it was a night of fulfillment. although today i may not be having a date anymore, i feel satisfied that i was with her the other night. her reason for not going out today is of course very obvious to me. major might be nosing around...:):)

just the same, it's a night full of love and affection not even major pain could stop us.

happy valentine's.

Friday, February 10, 2006

life on the edge...

aptly titled that way because that's how my life is right now. death threats became very frequent lately.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

staple churches..

lately, i've been visiting churches. well at least for four straight weeks now. not that im into some kind of penitence (is this the right term? i dunno) or some kind of pilgrimage because i want to achieve something. just like those board exam takers ya know.

first stop, bread of life in glorietta 6. second is the church located at the center of greenbelt. third is the famous quiapo church. then there's the church in antipolo city (our lady of good voyage and pilgrimage). next is mt. carmel chapel still in antipolo. and the last one just this morning is st. claire church in katipunan ave. in all these churches except that of bread of life, i have lighted a candle for my wishes.

creating a dent in me is the one in st. claire just this morning (i mean of all the candle lighting ceremony i usually do). for one, in st. claire, you have to buy eggs in exchange for your prayer list. and so bel and i bought 6 pcs. of eggs from the ale outside the church for only 30 bucks. after writing down our prayers, we slipped the piece of paper in the designated dropping area so that the pink sisters would pray with the help of st. claire. i really dont know if they would read my request as well as bell but i hope that the prayers would get to heaven. anyway, after dropping those, bel and i went to the candle lighting section for my usual ceremony of lighting candles. i lighted candles for us, for my and her parents, for our schooling and work, for my friends and her friends, for brothers and their family. after which, we spent another five minutes inside the church where i said the same prayer again.

while walking back to lrt station, i told her what were my wishes. there were three things actually. first, for her marry me. second, to the Lord to give us a baby girl and lastly for us to be happy forever. not so much of a prayer i guess. in return she also told me that she listed 3 things and that she wrote her name and mine at the bottom of the paper. her wishes were basically the same as mine except written differently. her second wish was so touching because she asked to the Lord that i will be given to her completely (well, i think she already got that one)....

while in antipolo last saturday bound for prayer mountain (yeah, the original plan was to go to prayer mountain only to find out we could not locate it), we ended up having to pray in the church of antipolo city which is our lady of pilgrimage and golden voyage. well i guess it's the churches for those who will leave the country. although eventually we will be leaving, not so soon i guess. eventually...

i was late as in super late her brows are pointing to the sky when i got in lrt santolan station. and who wouldnt be if you're an hour late? i was kinda hesitant at first but i have to admit it was my fault and so i was terribly sorry. of course i was able to appease her...

since the prayer mountain was nowhere to be found, we settled for mt. carmel church where the trike driver took us. there was only one person in there. sensing that we are in the wrong church, we decided to pray for fifteen minutes and go back to the natural park where the trike passed.

and so we spent the whole afternoon listening to hinulugang taktak falls. it was an afternoonfull of conversation. bliss and euphoria filled the air....

Thursday, February 02, 2006

high...

there are things in life that we have to strive for ardently in order to achieve our goals. but there are also other things that are given to you in a silver platter. i am not saying mine was given to me downright. but what God has given me after so much hardship and tons of prayers is really amazing. i thank God for giving me BEL...

feb. 1, that was yesterday was most memorable for me and love of my life. supposedly we are to attend a school activity in ratsky malate. it turned out that the venue was ratsky morato. way too far from here. and so i pleaded if we could instead have dinner at malate and spend the rest of the night in the area also. good thing she agreed. and so after having two bottles of colt with shine and bvhoy in tokdo grill (the usual hang out where else), i met them (she was with jen, her good friend and our classmate also) in front of tia maria's.

malate restaurants have come up with innovative scheme of putting up tables and chairs outside their premises to accommodate more customers. so come night time, you'll see people eating along the side streets. althougg it's not closed for traffic, the area is still a sight to behold with all the lights, jolly people, bystanders, yuppies up for gimmicks, foreigners with their hooker partners and almost all people in all walk of life.

we had grilled chicken wings and pork liver. the area where we ate has been my favorite resto for the past months. our good friend and classmate rhea muana introduced us to the place. she used to eat there after having her dancing lessons near the area. the food was superb. i had asthma attacks right after though since we seated near the grill area. smoke billows through the air i have no choice but to swallow them.

after eating we hit the baywalk. three of us. bvhoy came along after we were already seated in one of the resto (anthology by the bay) where frodo like waiters/waitresses serve the customers. it was a night of good music, a breath of fresh air of the manila bay ( i wonder why the smell was not offensive last night), subtle conversations and just a night of pure enjoyment. the band was just right. singing songs just enough to mesmerize the audience. the area was fully packed. there were no more rooms to accommodate customers. koreans and other balikbayans enjoy the sights and sounds. the baywalk at night is really a different story to tell than what you see of it during the day. it transforms itself into an entertainment mecca by night and a laid back park during the day. the lights and the busy people around just add glitter and glamour in the area.

after enjoying the sights and sounds of baywalk, jen went home with her friend. bvhoy found his way home too while me and bel found ours too...

and so life is like a box of chocolate. you'll never know what you'll gonna get next....